Not To Be Too Dramatic But...

...this is literally the last few minutes of me being in my 30’s.

40. 40!!!

I wasn’t handling this sudden realization of oldness (at least what I always thought of what is considered old when I was, well, younger) a few weeks ago. But, in light of all that is happening in this world, I’ve come around to the acceptance of it...just needed to prep for it. Haa.

I’m grateful and appreciative of the life I’ve lived so far; all the experiences, both happy and sad, all the highs and lows. I’m extremely lucky to have met all the people I have in my life, for every one of them came with a reason and brought some sort of meaning (even if I don’t know what it is).

Family and friends (even though I doubt anyone reads this blog anymore), thank you for everything! Special shoutouts to my son and my chipmunk especially.  Gawd I’m making this a eulogy, but whateves.

Whatever my 40’s bring, let’s do this! Just gotta avoid this virus for now. Haa again.

Anxious Times Ahead

As I sit here typing out words for the first time in months, it's filled with a lot of...emotions.  Happiness, anxiety, worry, sense of fatalism...it's all there.

COVID-19 is the biggest thing right now. It's that sense of unknown; the fear of not knowing what to do if the big one hits.  Definitely a representation of how ignorant humans are and how the superiority they feel is not real.  Are we really in control of our lives?

Lots of thoughts; but I do counteract it with a happy one.  Let's do this!

Been A Long While!

One last post for the year...lol. Lots of stuffs happening this year. Glad to report I finished the kitchen but then decided to do a living/dining room reno. So of course that’s not done yet.

But otherwise, things have been...great! My chipmunk officially moved in, the boy is doing well, and mentally I’ve been doing better (I think).

No New Years resolutions for next year (and perhaps for the future as well). Decided to just continue trying to live my best life and trying hard for the ones that love me and the ones that I love. Even for those that don’t, because maybe one day there might even be love.

Keep on keeping on!

Counter That With Frustration

Staggering to the finish line here...this never ending kitchen reno just needs a few more things, most notably the counters. While the counter people came for measurements last month, the actual counters themselves are still on a boat from China, and expecting more delays. Well I guess that explains why the price for these counters was almost half the price of the competitors. I can wait it out though, but I can’t wait out my impatience. Meh. 

Almost there? Almost. There. 

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Finished my annual Mississauga Marathon 10k Race last weekend. Not the best time, as usual (56:30), but I guess okay for not training. But the better part of the race weekend (aside from eating wings with everyone after the race)? The next day running Eamon’s first 2k race. And he killed it! 10:45 with no stopping and a helicopter parent behind him videotaping him as he ran (lol).  I’m surprised my legs/body lasted but all-in-all I’m super proud of him. Hopefully he keeps running and doesn’t just, you know...Nintendo Switch :s

Surprise/Unsurprising Ending

So I went for a massage yesterday at the Chinese place I always go to (Happy Foot Spa). And before you jump to conclusions with the post title and the context of this story, no, it was not a surprise happy ending. I can see why you’d think that though.

Anywho...I’m lying on the table when the old Chinese lady comes in and starts working on my back and legs, asking me if the pressure was good. I said yes and then it was quiet.

50 minutes in, she asks me to turn around so she could massage my shoulders. I turn around then she is surprised and goes “oh! You a man! I thought because if your long hair you woman! I was thinking you legs muscular”

Wtf? LOL.

Maybe it’s time to cut my hair? Nah.

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Went to Boodle Fight with the boys last night. Funny we started talking all about our ailments and what pains we have on our bodies. Getting old!

I think it’s great that we make an effort to have a boys night out every once in a while...it’s therapeutic and the conversations are always great. Not everyone is lucky to have a core group of friends that lasts for decades. Hopefully for decades to come!

Also thanks to my chipmunk for staying at home with my progeny. I got a “good catch” and don’t know what I did to deserve this lucky life

Jolly Good Sacre Bleu

When the anxiety or whatever it is hits you...sigh.

Went to England, France and Belgium with my chipmunk and had a pretty damn good time!  (Thanks for everything ‘Rissa).

Have work in a few hours from now but can’t seem to sleep.  So I’ve been binging on “Umbrella Academy”...great Netflix show.  There goes my New Years resolution of less screen time.  Meh

2019? 2019!

Well dang. 2018 went by fast.

A few days ago we took Eamon to his first musical (Charlie and the Chocolate Factory), and I may have enjoyed watching him watch it more than watching the actual show. From his random ass questions (“is that guy really playing video games up there?” as he watched a character pretend to) to his random ass laughing in random parts where he laughed loud and the people around us were highly amused by this, it was quite amusing for me.

Kitchen renos? Not done yet (of course) but I do see some light at the end of the tunnel. Just gotta open my eyes more and stop being so unproductive!

Went to a small New Years party last night at Dormatt’s place. Fun times!

So with that said, my yearly resolutions that I inevitably become mediocre at by the middle of the year but am learning not to be too hard on myself when I get mediocre:

1. Less phone time! This is gonna be crazy hard but I swear I’m aware that it’s an addiction like drugs. I really have to limit it and realize that too much information for my curious mind is not good sometimes (my brain is always on overdrive and I don’t let it relax and reflect when really I should)

2. No texting and driving! Not that I’m admiting I’m doing this (never know who’s reading this) but I really have to smarten up with this one

3. Be in the now. Enjoy experiences more without regret with the people I like and love

4. Work on that anxiety. Realize that all the past decisions and mistakes I’ve made in the past is just that...the past...and work on the present and future with a clearer mind and heart

5. Travel more? Well we are going to London and Paris in February (!!)

6. Exercise more. Maybe not so mediocrely

7. Eat out less. Errr...we’ll see about that

Anywho...it goes on so life goes on 😁

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