"Don't Work So Much Daddy"

Well that is one way to make you feel like a bad father. I'm day 5 of this 7 day oncall shift, so Eamon hasn't been sleeping at my place and it would appear he wants nothing more than to. I feel bad having to tell him "when you get older, son, you'll see that sometimes you have to work hard so you make money so you can pay for things". But damn if this isn't going to be one of those moments I regret not spending more time with my rapidly growing baby.

...Or I just have to suck it up because I only have two more days to go. But whateves, this sh*t really pulls at my heart strings

Christmas Time. Christmas Time?!?

Wowza. As always, that came fast. 

Gotta start living a better life!

And He's Going To "The Happiest Place On Earth"

Debatable, that title.

Anywho, my boy is going with his mom and his grandparents to Florida for a week. What am I going to do? Feeling like I'm already missing him. Luckily I'm oncall for the majority of the week to keep me occupied (hopefully not that occupied). I also have all these projects I'm yet to finish...errrr...

Still Clicking!

Great past week...did the half marathon in 2:10 and survived despite having some cramping knees and arm (?).  Did a 5k run this morning with the workmates and the boy where we dressed up as superheroes.  Immense feeling of pride as the progeny won for best costume and he posed and hammer it up for the crowd and cameras, and my team also won for best costumes. And to cap it off, I ran 24:59, the best 5k race I ever did (and pushing Eamon's stroller to boot). Things are good!

When Things Click

It was a great past couple of days...quality time with the love of my life (my boy), my bowling tournament seemed to have gone well, and I'm getting the hang of this salsa thing.  I took the MiWay and TTC today to pick up my race kit, enjoyed traversing Toronto like a newcomer, and all this despite getting rear ended a few days ago (cars get fixed, luckily no one was hurt).

Now all I have to do is survive this half marathon on Sunday...lol.

But...things are good! I've come a long way, but still have a longer way to go...

I Still Blog...Sort Of

Pedorthist Jools asked me randomly if I still blog.  I mean, I do, sort of. But ever since life has changed for me (marriage ending), the desire hasn't really been there.

I've always been one for history and sentimentality (I've been doing this for more than ten years now?), but I guess I've just become a more...different person. I won't say jaded (life is good, I really can't complain).  Maybe just a bit more...private? Introspective? Maybe I'm looking to change the person I am, which includes letting go of much of the past?

I dunno.  I doubt anyone even reads this anymore, including myself at times.

But the original intent is still there: to see what I was up to at a point in time in my life; a place to hone my (erratic) writing skills; somewhere to develop my humour/thoughts by writing it out; a place to be dramatic and cryptic; and a place to allow some people into my life that I wouldn't actually share otherwise. I hope it evolves to something better for me

Well That Was A Great Three Years

Tomorrow I wrap up my three year commitment at the WNV program. A lot happened in the three years both professionally and personally, and I am actually quite grateful for the time I had there.

I won't miss the traffic driving back home, but I sure as heck will miss everything else. But of course, all good things...

What Made Me Oddly Happy Today

Playing ball with the weekly crew, I made a full speed, running layup. With my left hand.

Booyakashaa!

Oh Crap My Passport!

Went to a resort in the US and realized I got got my passport. How the hell am I going to get home?

And then I woke up

Time To Break Back

I seriously gotta get crackin'. Gotta find the time and effort to do this project cause the summer is running out.

And Wowza where did I get the idea I am able to afford this project? Lol

Ah well...money comes, money goes

Guardians Of The Freakin Galaxy

Watched the movie today with Michael (he's turning 12 next month? The f?). One of the best movies I've seen in a while. Only sucks that the sequel is in three years. Yargh

http://youtu.be/iPKXTwQPJHQ

In Which I Realize Dancing Is Tough

Went to a salsa practice for the first time last night. Holy crap! I have to practice a damn lot. Yargh

That Time I Almost Died Rafting

But it was so worth it! Great times, and I hope to do it again next year, but in the faster, more dangerous boat!

Also good times for a quick visit to Ottawa and Montreal with Clavo, Kelvin and Walter.  My poor tummy though...

Food Poisoning?

Gawd dang aren't I a health inspector? What happened there? Lol. 

(Oh right, Kim fook yuen and standard sweets Indian buffet happened.)

Hope I get better for my one planned vacation this year to the Ottawa River and rafting and Montreal. Also I'm oncall...really hope I don't get called tonight. 

#doh

Happy Canada Day 2014!

Always one of my favourite days of the year. I'm always feeling grateful and lucky to live here. It's easy for me to complain whenever something minor doesn't go my way, but I always try to never lose sight of he fact that this is home for me.

With that said, hooray for double-time overtime work! Sweltering in the sun and humidity working at Brampton's Canada Day celebration (along with mosquito trap pickup in the morning), and kind of tired from last nights excursion with thekambals and Pete and Ron, but the extra money I'm making makes it all worth it.

Also, having not seen my son since last Friday (Sharon took him to Ottawa to see Debbie), I'm quite excited to see my little terror tomorrow...just gotta finish these chores here somehow

Been A While

Anything different?

Not that much.

Fathers Day tomorrow. Might be a bit rough, but generally it will be good as long as I got my love, my babybabybaby

Will It Bug Me Forever?

Maybe. 

But whatever, such is life.

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Well that was interesting. Maybe I'll give it one more shot but let's see what else is out there

They Weren't Always Right

As I grow older I start to realize that the household I grew up in as a child is not the same one I want for my child. Yeah, there was love and caring and all of that, but there are certain aspects I've realized that I shouldn't transfer over to me being a parent. 

For one, I vow to grow up listening to my child, reasoning with what he says, and if I truly feel like I'm in the wrong, I wouldn't hesitate to apologize. I certainly wouldn't ask him, angrily and with raised voice "who the f*ck do you think you are?" And then request for him not to come over with his child anymore. In front of his child. And he's an adult himself. 

And I sure as hell would respect the way he feeds and raises his child, unless it was outrageously unhealthy for the child.

I know I can't shelter him from all the unpleasanties of the world and that this is one of those moments he grows and realizes that the world can be fucked up sometimes, but it still sucks when he considers himself the reason for his Lolo and Daddy arguing.

I'm grateful for the life I've lived, sure, but to be real there are always going to be resentments that I'll hold. Easier said than done, of course.

I'm also going to remember this line ArJ said: "you don't demand respect; you earn respect"

Any day now they will no longer be here. I'm not wishing for it to happen, but I just know it and a sad part of me thinks of how relieved I'd be. I'm sure I'll regret the last part of what I just said there, but the angst I feel right now numbs me to any thought or idea of that.

My job is to put Eamon in the best position in life that he can be. I owe that much to him. It is not wrong of me to think the things I am right now...

Napping...It's Awesome

Especially when you've been so exhausted and full of junk food.

I fear the return of sloth. Must get at 'em...

10 Years Strong!

So we just did the 10k race yesterday, Arvin and my 10th year in a row doing it. And wouldn't you know it, he beat me again by a mere 3 seconds. Doh. So many things during the race I did in four seconds I could've not done. Lol.  Ah well, it's always gonna be that way with this skinnier, healthier bastard. Lol.

Hopefully this will push me to run more and get ready for the half marathon come October, but you know...nah