The State

Here I am again.  Impatient.  Forcing and trying to look for the only thing in life that I truly want.

Had it, lost it because it wasn't exactly what I thought it was.

Now I'm left questioning if I ever made any right decisions about it.

I told myself I'd never settle and that I would be patient.  Why can't I change?

Where is my confidence?

When will I realize that life will never go the way you exactly want it?

When will I stop complaining and putting my life at a standstill and just...live happily?

I lost focus. I have to be happy we myself first.  Sigh.

Get up, wake up and shake it up