Do I like who I am today though?
Most days. I've been consciously trying to like myself more, despite my doubts, insecurities and sadness.
I try to look forward to the future but some days I'm stuck in the past.
It's not only the failed marriage...I mean, I'd like to think we're in a good place, but alas nothing stays forever.
Case in point? My inability to fully get over the latest major thing in my life.
Funny, I asked her, so cocky and confidently a few weeks ago if things were going to be awkward between us. Today, I was the awkward one. Gawd damn, how old am I? But does that matter? I feel what I feel and I act how I act.
I stay hopeful that one day the answers will be clearer (not totally clear; can't be naive about that). In the meantime, I better do something with myself to stay busy.
Rambling idiot. But I forgive myself. Right?
I'm thankful for the anchors in my life
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