That Boy Will Be A Man Soon

Had Xavier's 1st Birthday Party today.  It's been one year already?!?

Time goes by quite fast.

If only time could slow down, and if things were different

(cryptic much?)

From Bachelor To Baby Daddy

So last night I hung out with Melodie (and later on Nina and Ryan passed by).  It was fun just sitting down, doing nothing, watching the game, playing video games (haven't done that in years, and I felt like an uncoordinated retard).  I got home at like 1:45am.  Can't remember the last time I did that.

Then I woke up early to go to the babytime show at the Toronto Convention Centre.  Wow.  I swear it's like the wedding industry:  it's all a sham!  They just want you to spend as much money as possible (not that I'm cynical or anything).  But really, it was a lot to take in.

I am, though, getting more excited about having a kid.  I get to hold one and I don't have to give it back!  (gay)

We kept going back to certain vendors, and as a result, we now have 6 baby bottles.  Oh, we also bought a sling and a baby wrap.  Can't wait to rock those out (I'm serious).  We were also close to buying a really expensive Uppababy stroller because apparently it's worth it (Gil and Marie have one, so it's not really that ridiculous.  Right?), but we thought better of it as we may have been too excited.  Hopefully it's just as cheap when we do buy it.

But yeah, I went from being a "bachelor" to being a "baby daddy"...yikes, where has my life gone?

*drama*

It's Like Puberty All Over Again

I've always prided myself on the fact that I have been able to go only 5-6 hours of sleep a day, and still be somewhat effective.  I used to just mentally will myself not to be sleepy or lethargic.  Lately, though, I've been feeling tired.  I hope this doesn't mean my mental strength is starting to wane (not that I've ever had mental strength).

I hope my body isn't changing again.  I need to be able to perform on a few hours of sleep, especially with a baby on the way.

Can't wait till my voice starts to crack?

Maybe I Have To Rethink This...

...whole basketball thing.  That is, that I'm a "scorer" in basketball.

We played the worst team in the league, and managed to only score 25 points (a whopping 4 points from me).  I think I'm too tense out there.  Gotta relax again and just let the game come to me.  Not that I'm looking at personal stats or anything, since we won and all.

(Okay, no, seriously, do I really think I'm that good that I say those things and I'll magically get better?  lol)

On the brightside, my energy levels are up again.  But after just downing this panzo, I'm not sure how it will be tomorrow

Gotta Get Off This Cycle

Eat like crap, go to the gym, eat like crap, play basketball, eat like crap, eat like crap, eat like crap.

Like crap.

May that will help get me out of this funk?

Feeling Refreshed Now?

After a weekend of slothing and doing nothing, I would hope so.

It's a new day (a new life?), time to git up and git at it

Behaviour Is A Tough Thing To Change

I should know.  As much as I try to change, things stay the same.

I do not know when this angst will leave me (perhaps never), but I have to learn how to deal better.

Lord help this child of ours coming into this world that he/she does not get my way of thinking, nor my hot/cold tendencies

This Is It, Right?

I think so.

Feels like it is (a little like nausea).

And life goes on, I guess

And Now Do It With A Kid

Went grocery shopping today and saw a Father with a young boy.  Then I saw him take out his cell and call someone (presumably his wife) and ask her if he had to buy a certain food.

Then I got thinking:  in a few years, this is going to be...me.

Yikes

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Heard this song for the first time in a while and forgot how much I liked it, despite her sounding like a howling dog at parts:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oLclkP9x_68&ob=av2e

Gorged Incorporated

Had lunch with my Kiri today (day off what).  I gorged at the Japanese place we went to.  I've been eating too much lately.  I should stop.

I think it really sucks the life that is being handed to Kiri right now.  I wish there was something I could do to help ease her pain, but like other things in life, there is just not enough wishing in this world for things to come true.

Wow Debbie Downer, gotta perk up

Basketba-lawl

I'm really into basketball.  If you are too, I would think you would find this as funny as I did:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hGFDF96hwTE&feature=player_embedded

I'm still cracking up

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Had some yummy Afghan food for dinner.  I ate too much

Hi Juhles!

Fancy meeting you here.

I'm just going to go ahead and believe that you're really not going to enjoy these non-sensical ramblings of a confused iconoclast.  Or maybe you will.  I mean, I do enjoy you.

Please, stay and peruse for a while.  But don't blame me if you don't like what you see (and read...assuming your eyes don't "hurt")

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Day one of Project:  Recommitment to Focus.

(Fail due to some munchos, 3 chocolate balls, 1.5 shortbread cookies and a brownie)

Gotta Snap Out Of It

So I think I'm in a funk.  Physically, emotionally, mentally...what have you.

I gotta snap out of it.  It's manifesting in my basketball games (only 4 points today, and we lost).  I have no energy.

It's time to git up and git at it

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Went to Bioped today and met Jools and her new (half-Asian) baby Dexter.  He's so frikin' cute and smiley and bouncy (and he's only 4 months old).  I'm hoping our baby turns out that way.  I think she trusted me because I was pretty much babysitting him for 30 minutes by myself as she worked on my orthotics (I'm oddly flattered by that and I feel good about it.  Go figure).  I thought it was funny when the other customers there thought it was my baby.  I was gonna go along with it, but then I realized that this child was wayyyy too cute to be mine.

One of her "secrets" she told us to do was to use this thing called Baby Plus (put it on Sharon's belly in the morning and night to mimic the sound of heartbeats).  I mean, sure, it may be some new-age-fangled thing, but it's worth a shot?  We need to give every advantage to this child, because genetically, we're not starting him/her off good...lol

Newness Abounded

New building for work, and it's actually nice.  Even nicer?  The commute home, as it shaves 15 minutes off of it.

Also, only takes 10 minutes from my gym to the office.  Score!

I can get used to this.  Although, it does remind me that I have to start thinking about my future again.  Less than a month left in this role.

What am I going to do next?  I am going back to my old position, but another, different one is being posted for next week.  Decision time again

That's Got To Be It, Mother

So my Mother just gave me a phone call, presumably to make me feel guilty.  Here is our exchange:

Mom:  How come you didn't call me all week?  You know your Dad is in Las Vegas

Me:  Sorry Mom, I've been busy all week.  I was in training in Toronto all week

Mom:  Oh, well I was just wondering why you never called

Me:  Sorry Ma, like I said, I was just a little busy

Mom:  Are you stressed out?  Maybe it's because your cholesterol is high or you have high blood pressure

Me (trying to figure out exactly what she means by that and quickly giving up):  Okay, we'll try to pass by today for lunch

I Blame The Food (And Also Because I Suck)

Had my first ever 5km race this morning for the United Way.  When I run a 10km race, I average between 50-55 mins.

So, this being a shorter race, I figure I could at least half the time, and do a little better considering I should have a faster pace.

FAIL.

I ran it in about 28 mins.  Wow.

I'm just going to go ahead and blame it on the fact that I have been eating way too richly this past week.  Well, that and the fact I suck.  Yup.

Next year I plan to do better.  Perhaps

Well That Was A Jaunt

I found this work week...nice.  It was nice to take a break from the normal office duties and from the people there.  It was nice to meet new people.  It was a change being in the classroom again and being without a (full) computer (bluckburry ftw), but still, it was...nice.

It was especially nice having "free meals" and a "free stay" here in Toronto.  I'm a tourist!

Just one last class to go, then I'm going to stick around TO before I go to a free Raptors game tonight, then finally to home to see Bubs and Bubs.

I have an early wake-up tomorrow for work's 5km race (I'm screwed for that, btw).  Back to routine!

When I Knew I Had Emotional Problems

When I became way too distraught over having a pretty bad basketball game.  It's supposed to be for fun!

Being the league leader in scoring was fun while it lasted...

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Still trying to figure out how to blog while using a blackberry.  Not.  Successful.

Oh well...I can see though why they call this a "crackberry"

How Goes The Toronto?

So far, not too bad.  The training is actually informative, the meals are above superb (for conference food), the hotel room is nice and free of bedbugs, and my cohort Julia is good company.

Oh, and the BlackBerry is making me look like a businessman/bigshot, what with my important look as I use it (when really, I'm just messaging someone or browsing thestar.com).  Poser what!

So I just spent 1.5 hrs driving home so I can prepare for my basketball game, and then I head back for my adventure.

I really like these opportunities for these conferences (which, sadly, I don't ever foresee doing again unless I change jobs or something)

2.0

Guess who upgraded in technological life?

I'm not sure exactly why I got a Crackberry, but I did.  Quite frankly, I think this is just feeding into my web-surfing addiction, and I think I'm way too connected as it is.  Now I just have to get used to the thing...

My Mother Never Ceases To Surprise Me

So it's been well-documented here that I find my Mother funny.  I just saw this posting on FB that she did to one of my cousins:

"Hey missing you a lot when are you going shopping with us again your tito teng misses his jokes to you thanks anyway for the chocolate you're sweet"

My Mother, who has an averse reaction to anything involving punctuation, manages to properly put the correct "you're/your" at the end?  Just kills me, I tell you

Hanging With Old White Folk

My neighbour, Murray, had a get together at his place (he turned 80 years old), and his daughter Judy invited us to come.  Murray has three daughters and a son, and 10 grandchildren.  And it was actually quite fun.  Go figure.

I think Sharon fell in love with Murray's eldest grandchild, a 25 year old typical white guy with the bed head hair, muscles, tall, good looking and an outgoing personality who does missionary work in Nepal in the summers.  Not that I'm feeling inferior or anything

Maybe This Was What I Needzzzzzzz?

Nothing like sleep to wash away the crappy, exhausted feelings?  9.5 hrs...haven't done that in a long time.

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Really feeling "The Waterboys" lately.  I like it when I newly discover an old band and their music.  Here is one of their songs that is good to listen to in the background:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DErmYfCt-RI&feature=related

And My Happiness Drops

I really hate days at work like today.  Just a lot of BS happening, and some self-admitted bad judegements by me.  I hate having to have to suck up to my boss so I don't get in the "bad books".  I hate "playing the game".  I am just so...frustrated.

Mind you, I thnk to myself:  what were you expecting?  Anything different?

I gotta learn to just go with the flow and take things as they come.  Try not to get so discouraged and remind myself it's just work.  Too bad I need it in order to live and provide for my family.

Meh.  It'll pass, I hope.

Speaking of work, today marks the last day I am going to be at the buildling at 44 PCD.  Almost 7 years there...it's not that I'm getting so sentimental about it, but you know what, this was really the only workplace I've known.  Lots of good memories there, some bad ones.  Met some of my bestest friends there.  Just gonna be weird driving to a new place after going to the gym in the mornings.  Mind you, I'm not going to complain so much when it cuts 15 minutes off my commute time going home

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Been feeling this song lately thanks to CBC Radio 2 in the morning (great station to listen to while driving in the morning):  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pu7AR0-FRro

Like the guy said on the station, I hope to see the Whole of the Moon one of these days, when I have those (increasingly rare) moments when things actually make sense, even for a second

How Could Sitting Make Me So Tired?

7 hours of meetings today.  A whole lot of sitting.  30 minutes break.  In meetings that made me question why I accepted this position with people that annoy me to no end.

Oh yeah...that's why I'm tired.

Only one month left though, and then will I have this feeling I'll miss it?  We'll see.

Something I won't miss though?  This drama happening at work right now.  Wonder what is going to happen tomorrow

So, Anyone Make Any Confirmations Today?

I did:  Nutella on Naan is awesome.  Yummy in my tummy

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No surprise, no show today.  Let's see what happens tomorrow again!

Wake Up Man

I used to be able to just wake up no problem, get by on 5 hours of sleep.  Lately, though, I've been feeling the "drowzies", despite sleeping 6 hours.  Plus, I haven't been finding the same motivation to go to the gym.   Oh man, this can't be good.  What happened to me?  I thought I was the same ol' G?

Wasn't I supposed to be okay with no sleep if and when we eventually have children?

I are worried.

Actually, wait, I think it may have something to do with the fact that I'm eating such horrible junk food lately and that I don't want to go to work

Who Is This Guy?

So is this what it feels like to win in basketball?  Our team won again today in a little bit of a blowout.  In fact, I got into the double digits again (11 pts.), which got me wondering:  who the hell do I think I am?  LOL...if my teammates only knew that I'm getting quite lucky with my shots.

But I guess they think I'm good because in the second half, I didn't play the last 12 minutes.  Well whatever, I'll get my basketball on tomorrow morning and I'll go with the thoughts of "well the other guys are playing garbage time because I'm part of the first string team".

Ego much?

It'll prolly all deflate next week anyway.  Here's to keeping it real

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Well that was a little bit of a let down this morning.  The somewhat predictable happened.  Tomorrow...here we go again

Tomorrow's The Big Conclusion...

...all those extra hours of work the past few months comes down to this.  Assuming someone shows up.

Anywho, it's time to be a "Supervisor" and do the things that are not pleasant but have to be done.  Why am I so nervous?

I'll go play basketball with some old Chinese men to get my mind off of things...

I Can't Be The Only One...

...who hates being indoors when the weather is nice outside, right?

I feel like it's such a waste, especially with the cold weather coming.

And yet, ironically, I'm on the computer instead of being the aforementioned outside...

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The first baby in our group of friends has arrived.  Congrats to Drs. Mistie on having Macsen Jaesung Sy!  Can't wait to miss him, especially since he was named after me

Does This Mean I Get To Get One Too?

So Sharon ended up getting a blackberry.  Do I get to get one too?

We did cancel our home phone line.  We just weren't using it and paying what we were paying wasn't worth it.  So two blackberries would be?  Let's go with "maybe".

We also ended up going for a nice car drive up to Caledon and to Terra Cotta Conservation Area.  It would've been nice to see the nice Fall colours of yellow, orange and gold.  Unfortunately, we only saw yellow and a bunch of naked trees.  Wowza, I guess it means its time then...the cold be coming.

And finally to celebrate our anniversary, we went to East Side Mario's (don't know why we can't get enough of that horrible place).  I think I consumed something like 7245 calories.  I'm dying here, and have some terrible itis

(that's itis, not tits.  Well, I do have some nasty man boobs, but that's besides the point)

Gut Punch

Had no energy today at the gym, and usually on a day off (what), I'd play ball for hours.  Might have had something to do with the fact I didn't eat breakfast?

So I did what any logical person would do: go grocery shopping, and, well...not eat.  I think I was trying to do a test for myself:  not to overbuy while doing groceries while hungry.  I think I was successful, but I did end up buying some naan and a seekh kabab afterwards.  But I think I was overtired and overhungry at that point anyway.

And really, I couldn't concentrate and enjoy lunch anyway as things were happening concurrently.

I should be more productive.  I think I'll clean my car and take advantage of this weather

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I wonder what it's like to be music star and do music videos like this:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ArdBI_F1LKo

How do they not get aroused?  Or do they and the girl just doesn't mind?  I think I should learn how to sing.  And workout.  And look more pretty.

Okay, forget it

Fargin Elbow

Played basketball this morning with my cool goggles.  Also got elbowed by someone on a tender spot on my forearm.

Yeah.  Ouch...was stinging and sore then, is stinging and sore now.  There goes my MVP season...lol

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All the extra work at work paying off?  I hope!  Looks like things be on the way...

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Emotions, when not harnessed, suck

Happy As Can Be 3rd Bubs

It may not be perfect, but it's ours.

I love you Bubba.  Thank you for putting up with all my crap.

This year (and beyond), more than ever, I will try to be the husband you want me to be and that man you wanted to marry three years ago.

(But really, what were you thinking three years ago?!?)

One Of Those Days Where You Go Huh

Ever have one of those days where you just go "huh"?  And not huhboy...just huh.

I had one of those days today.

Been working at the region for 6+ years.  When I started, I knew nothing, I had no girlfriend, I was broke, etc.

Fast forward to today:  I know some things (not nearly half as much as I should), I have a wife, I'm still broke (no surprise there...I'm certainly not going to get rich in this job), and lo and behold...my wife started work today at the same place that I work.

Huh.

New chapter in my life?  New chapter in my life

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Ended off the day today with a late basketball game, which we won.  Yee-uh!  We're doing much, much better than I ever thought we would do...lol

8 points today with two threes.  Could've had more, but I had no legs under me.  Even worse, I think I strained a hammy.  But whatever, we won and I already knew I plateaued last week

Where Thanksgiving = Swiss Chalet

Went to the in-laws for lunch.  Swiss Chalet.

Went to my parents for dinner.  Swiss Chalet.

Always so good for so little.  Except I'm going to have a lot...of pounds around my waist.

Short work week coming up...yee-uh!

Love Thanksgiving Monday

Or should I say, "not going to work Monday?"

Well whatever the case, finally we get to tell some news so it doesn't have to always be a secret

Okay, So You Have Time Off Now...

...why aren't you captilizing on it?

Things just seem so foggy right now.  Gotta snap out of it and get back to living life

What Kind Of An Idea Was That?!?

For some reason, I went for a run this morning.

I am currently hurting right now as a result.

Gotta cook for a small dinner tonight.  Thanksgiving is always a great time to overeat.

Oh right, that's why I have to run...

Pan-Eh-Go

Long week of work.  Glad it's over.  Until next week, when it's long all over again.  Oh well.

We decided to try Panago pizza.  Result?  It's okay.  I'll have to try it again before I decide if I like it.

This day has been all about bad eating.  Noodles for breakfast, Veal Sandwich and gelato for lunch, pizza and nutella on a spoon for dinner.  Good thing I'm not going to eat bad this weekend.  Not like it's Thanksgiving or anything...

(my fat jumps for joy, my heart just dies a little)

Two Random Things I Like From Youtube

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=68uWGunx3yQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pb-dYVEBtfM&feature=player_embedded

Tirritated

That would be a combination of tired and irritated.

I really shouldn't take work to heart.  It's just work after all.

I feel like dancing disco, and learn a routine