Am I Scared?

Terrified. I can't even put into words what it is I'm so terrified about. 

What if I DO end up breaking her heart again? What if I was wrong in all of this?

What can I do to make my mind more at ease? I don't think anything. I think time. 

Hearts are constantly changed and scars never heal. 

She shut her heart to me, rightfully so, and I saw it in her eyes today. 

I am trying so hard not to put up walls. Stay in the vulnerability of such an exposed heart and feelings. 

I have to shut out what I think other people will think and concentrate on my own thoughts. 

I have to face harsh truths