Workworkworkworkwork

Killin' it at work, full planning ahead with the laundry room (first!), buying stuff and things for the kitchen (two bloody base cabinets were $$$ but I always buy stuffs on sale), boy with me all week.

I'm kinda tired too, but I have been stretching and squatting every day still as per my New Years reso...hope I can keep it up!

New Year ‘18

It’s that time again! Semi-Unrealistic New Years resolution time:

1. Don’t use my phone as much while driving/while with my kid
2. Stretch at least 4 minutes a day
3. Start reno projects/finish reno projects
4. Continue drinking more veggies/fruits
5. Push ups
6. Dance better
7. Love better

On-Callin'

...and yet another year I work on-call during this time. I'm not actually that upset about this or anything, as its time to make that mon-ayyyeee.

Life is going by actually pretty fast though...King Ralph is retiring after 37 years of service. Jeez...I'm sad about it as he is the one to have hired me. I do owe a lot to the man!

Been Over A Month Now...

...since my meltdown. 

I'm still lucky 😁

Not so lucky? My BUFF.  Why do bad things happen to good people?

Everytime I Try To Be Productive...

...I don't. Blah

Things Happen Within A Month

Just thinking about how messed up I was just a few weekends ago...and now I'm good and better. 

I'm a pretty lucky guy 😁

Literally

So my boy uses the word "literally" now. Literally...wtf?

Google Homed

Another step towards having absolutely no privacy ever!

The future is now, the end is near, enjoy as much as you can, so I hear

Monday’s Great Date Night

Taco Bell, Kingsmen, Reconnecting.

My heart is full, my stomach is polluted.

Haa. Love my Chipmunk

Nothing Butter

Than garlic butter face

*  *  *

My heart, pride and feelings still irrationally and frustratingly hurt by very little triggers and it’s not fair to others. I gotta shake it off and see what’s in front of my face now and the future...still though*

(*unfortunately it feels like there will always be a “still though”. Self-sabotage? No just me being a headass)

List Of Togetherness

I could get used to this.

Still a ways to go though...how things change over time

Everything Happens For A Reason

...even if you don't know what that reason is. 

I believe it, I think I always have.

I also think I'll become more secure again as time goes on. Or insecure. I guess it depends. /*earth shattering revelation here*

"We're Gonna Take It Slow"

/wide eyes emoji. 

Whatever, I love my weirdo

So I'm Gaga

Dammit

Okay. So I Was Wrong.

She's my Little Rock.  I love her and I'm a stupid idiot. The end. 

20 Episodes Of Shameless

I tried to keep busy and keep my mind off of things this past weekend. I watched 20 one-hour episodes of Shaneless.

Ironic...because now I feel shameful. Sigh

My Feet Are So Cold And Sweaty

Fuck.

Because The Fact Of The Matter Is...

She isn't yours and prolly never will be again. You lost one of the best things to ever happen to you and you just have to deal with it. And not only that, you've done jackshit so far to think you're even close...idiot

Alright, Enough Of This

Getting my confidence back (may be short lived, but still).

I'm not the only one with a lot to lose here.

Gotta keep my head up

I Wonder...

...if she thought about me the same I've been thinking of her this whole time. Maybe that's what I'm really insecure about. 

I guess that's the problem with going all-in and putting all the eggs in one basket. I'm a wreck

https://youtu.be/u-wOyNiQtUg