Wednesday, October 30, 2013

And Here Comes Another Freakout

Feeling dumb, stupid, naive.


Gotta get stronger and focus on the present and the future...

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Just Takes A Second

Good good good good good freakout good good good good delusional good good good good freakout good crap good can'tstopthinkingandbeingemotional good good good.

No wonder I turn to it.  Can't be good.

Good good good freakout good good good justforgetdammit good good good overthinkerig good good...

Monday, October 21, 2013

Now What? Look At It

Don't forget to see the forest from the trees.

Big picture.

Big picture.

Day by day, step by step until sweet, sweet...

Relapses suck

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Turning Pages

Sometimes a book is really good.  Sometimes, most times, unfortunately, it has to end.

The memories of that book will always stay, but it's someone else's.

Thank you for letting me read yours.  H8usm4vr.

I have to start writing my own book...

Saturday, October 19, 2013

"Son, Can I Have Some Of Your Croissant?"

"No.  Cry first."

"I'm not going to cry for a croissant"


That's my boy.

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

I'm Sickish

My kid to me after I tell him that:  "do you need to go to hospital?"

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Haven't done a funny parents story in a while.  My Mom was over and trying to have a conversation with Eamon.  She asked him, "do you sing O'Canada at school?  Let's sing it together...O'Canada...our guiding home land...okay, Eamon, you sing it"

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Saturday, October 12, 2013

What Are You Thankful For?

I'm thankful that my life isn't as bad as it could have potentially been.

I'm also thankful for the light of my life, the little boy who makes me smile (of course, as I have incessantly said over and over).

I am not thankful for not wearing more toques after I just got this haircut.  I have to remember to do so as a lot of heat gets lost when I cut the top and as a result I always tend to get a cold.  Like right now.  Yargh

Sunday, October 06, 2013

Don't Grow Up Too Fast, Little Boy

I kiss and hug my boy as much as I can whenever he's with me.  One day he'll grow up where he doesn't want me to do that anymore, and I'll have to be okay with that.  In the meantime, I'm gonna enjoy every last moment I can doing this stuff with my crazy little retard (I say that endearingly, of course).

Random thought as I remembered how I felt when I was swimming with him this morning, which in itself is an activity that is one of the highlights of my week

Where's The Motivation?

No, seriously, where did the energy go?  Somedays I feel it, but lately I've been moving like molasses.

Gotta get going...gotta stop just coming on to here to complain.

Happy notions:
-my son is getting to be a big boy and the Montessori claims that he is really smart and cute and gets away with stuff just when he smiles.  He truly is, some days, the only reason I smile
-the house stuff is coming along.  If I do a lookback on how it is now to when I bought it, I think I've been doing an okay job.  I just have to remember that stuff like what I'm doing takes a heck of a long time, so I shouldn't get down on myself if I'm not further along to where I unrealistically wanted to be
-new/old friendships I've been having lately
-that maybe it's working and that I still have some optimism