Gotta tread slowly...
Friday, February 28, 2014
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Monday, February 24, 2014
Sunday, February 23, 2014
Friday, February 21, 2014
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Any slight happiness I gain seems to always get tempered.
I'm never going to escape the past. I know logically I can't and I don't even necessarily think I want to.
Just keep moving forward despite whatever setbacks happen. Can't control what I can't control
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Monday, February 17, 2014
Gotta find a home I can park my anxiety in. This is getting nuts
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Happy Family Day! Even though my family structure is quite different now and I spend a lot of time worrying if Eamon will be able to cope with the changes (he has so far, I think), I'm lucky to have the life I have. It could always be so much worse.
Aside from my consistent and constant complaining I do on here, I just have to keep looking forward and smile as much as I can :)
Sunday, February 16, 2014
...when you realize you can't go back and not sure where you fit anymore. Hate it but gotta accept it. Supposed to live life with no regrets, but it's me we're talking about here.
But to the future anything can happen I suppose. Just gotta keep living life and creating a new story
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Met with Lisa today and we ate some deelish fatty porketta. Dang it was good.
Would really love it if she would be able to work at Peel. The thought of my mentor working in the same office would be absolutely insane to me if it became reality.
Also insane? What just happened. Really?!? A surprising way to get a genuine smile on my face for the first time in a while. Go figure
Monday, February 10, 2014
Sunday, February 09, 2014
Friday, February 07, 2014
...make me go crazy.
I have to keep busy.
I have to forget.
Why am I cursed with the memories that keep me awake and make me anxious?
When will I really get over the loss?
When will it make sense?
(All I've been doing lately is complaining on this blog. But I need an outlet. I'm spiraling. I need to right myself again. Wait, when was I ever righted?)
Tuesday, February 04, 2014
Monday, February 03, 2014
Sunday, February 02, 2014
Here I am again. Impatient. Forcing and trying to look for the only thing in life that I truly want.
Had it, lost it because it wasn't exactly what I thought it was.
Now I'm left questioning if I ever made any right decisions about it.
I told myself I'd never settle and that I would be patient. Why can't I change?
Where is my confidence?
When will I realize that life will never go the way you exactly want it?
When will I stop complaining and putting my life at a standstill and just...live happily?
I lost focus. I have to be happy we myself first. Sigh.
Get up, wake up and shake it up