Acupuncture? Acupuncture.

So I finally got around to going to my old Chinese women massage/acupuncture place to heal my nagging ankle.

Acupuncture and acupressure and the massage hurt almost as bad as the injury itself, but dang did it work wonders.  These ladies know their stuff, which just goes along my theory that if you're old, a woman, Chinese and seem to be wise, you generally know your sh*t. Lol

*  *  *

Just came back from the annual AYCE Jays game with the boys from work. Seriously...i think we have to retire doing this. We're all getting up there in age and the spectacle of seeing Argana down 21 hot dogs is more scary now than fascinating. 

Regardless, fun times.  We even went to maple leafs square to catch the rest of the Raptors playoff game...which they lost. Whompwhomp

Staycation Results

So I had a week off. It was nice to decompress, I guess. In keeping with my plan not to put too much pressure on myself to do too much, I'm glad to say I accomplished the following this past week:

-watched the whole season 4 of The Walkng Dead

-removed the old cabinets from the previous kitchen Reno and mounted them in Sharon's garage and brought home some for my garage

-bought (a little) better fitting ice skates

-took down the old shelving from my garage

-won $10 at slots (!)

-generally...not much

I have another week off in a few weeks. We'll see how I feel by then and see if I feel the need to accomplish more

Oh It's The Pressure!

So I guess I caught myself putting too much, well, pressure on myself.  Trying to do so much, trying to force myself into this perceived place I should be at to be "happy".

I think I have to get back to just doing things that will help me focus more on me (as if I'm not selfish enough).  But really, I can't do this to myself...

*  *  *

Going for more salsa classes again.  I'm enjoying it; I just really have to practice

*  *  *

What happened to my plan of running a lot and getting fit?  Oops

Back To It?

Or more likely, just kind of...give up.  Meh.

*  *  *

Good times with my boy this weekend.  He's growing up into a typical boy, but one that I love so much.

Went to Ella's Bday party today (in swanky Forest Hill).  How do I know my child is one of the only children that doesn't watch TV/movies?  They were playing Frozen there and he was scared of the scenes that had suspense music in it.  He literally ran upstairs and told me to turn off the TV.  lol

*  *  *

Congrats to Arfeli for having baby Mika...our group of boys just keeps growing and growing.  I guess I won't be having my hair cut anytime soon...lol

Looking At The Mirror

Hard not to feel like a loser but I know I'm not.

Just trying not to get too discouraged.

Stomach is churning recently.  Yargh

123567

Looks like I committed to another round of dance class. Let's hope I actually learn something, especially since it's hard to, you know, distinguish my left side and my right side. *facepalm*

Still, I'm still having fun.  For now.

(Today was a bit tough on my ankle though.  Yargh...wolverine my a**)

Hard Not To Get Sucked Back In

As I keep trying to move forward, I realize the problem is occurring because I have a rear view mirror.

The objects, though, are at least moving further and further away.  It's just that...I can still see them.

*  *  *

Great couple days with my boy. As frustrating as it gets, it's nothing compared to the joy he brings me

*  *  *

Mushed up ankle is recovering nice and Wolverine like. I mean, sure it's all cankle-like due to the swelling and there's this nasty bruise, but considering I could barely walk yesterday and I even got X-rays it's coming along okay. 

Question is now how tentative am I going to be on it when I resume basketball and other activities?

*  *  *

Gotta do my taxes. Okay. Tomorrow. Let's see how far I get...

Gazing At My Boy

My baby just turned three yesterday...which I now consider the best day of the year.  Had a nice little get together, with the family over (including ex-in-laws).

Caught myself gazing at my boy today, dressing himself and telling me he wants to do it by himself and getting mad at me when I tried to help him.

Never felt such joy and sadness at the same time.

These are those days I never want to end.

(I'm seriously way too emotional for my own good). 

Also just watched the series finale of How I Met Your Mother...sweet story and I feel like it kind of echoes how I wanted my life to be like. My head will forever be in the clouds, I fear 

Here Comes The Approach…

…to mid-thirties!

Time flies, and I feel like I already lived a whole life. I hope the next stages of my life are equally as exciting, challenging, happy and of course, even better.

Thankful for the life I had and the people who were/are in it.

Hopefully in the future I start forgiving myself more and being less hard on myself as well

Memories Fading

Still not sure of myself or what I'm doing.

Just keep going and smiling!

*  *  *

My boy is getting much smarter now. Really loving this age, even though he is a handful at times

That Was Confusing

I'll find it. Eventually. I hope.

I can't give up.  Right?

(?)

Hey Now

Watch out now

I'll Never Forget Though

Still don't know where this life is taking me. Definitely trying to enjoy the ride along the way, especially when I think about where I was just even a month ago.  Not quite how I wanted it to go (picking myself up by myself) but I hope I'm stronger for it.

Goodbye vs. Letting Go...

Things Are Going

Hoping it lasts.

At least my mind isn't going in hyper overdrive (is moment, anyway).

What am I doing again?

That Was Awesome

Yeah, weird.

Still figuring things out though

Fun So Far

If nothing else, I'm glad that those thoughts are there and the compliments too.

*  *  *

Watch the frame! Keep elbow out in front, not really moving it too front or back 

Don't Overthink

Yet I kind of know already?

*  *  *

Was recently thinking about when I was the most happiest during that time, and also feeling sadness that it would not last and that I could not just focus in and get lost in that moment.

Such is the way I am.

Life moves forward no matter what.

One day I will get there in terms of that again. I can only hope

So How Did I Get Here?

Weird how life changes within a few weeks.

Gotta tread slowly...

Day Off, Day On

Watched like 6 episodes of Homeland. Got some housework done. Learned more about her.

Good day, I suppose.

Still a bit flustered though, of course.  Oh life, you'll never change

Well That's A Whole New Level

And fast. Woah