Wednesday, April 20, 2005

The Roller Coaster

That is what my emotions are calling the Casino from now on. The joy of winning, the agony of defeat (yikes, I'm talking in cliches like Anne now. I think I've been spending way too much time with her). But anywho, I try to rationalize it: Why be upset when the money you lost was the money you won? And you did try and won at Caribbean Stud, thus ending the two day Casino trip with a net profit of $15.
Not as exciting though when you consider I was up double what I won last night (in other words, I was up $170). See, I would have stopped, but I was to meet them at 7:00pm and by the time I was up, it was only 5:30pm. What was I to do for the next hour and a half? Hmmm...well, I could have done nothing. But, the point is, I was thinking it was money that I didn't really deserve anyway.
I don't like this gambling thing. I shouldn't do it. I have other responsibilities. And it's not money I feel I earned (Devil money?). Oh, and my heart can't take it. Fun then, it will only be for fun. So, logically, I will be at the Casino again until I really lose. Argh, I am a complex person.
I did go to Buffalo today, and had these famous wings. They weren't bad, but they aren't Originals. Wings again tomorrow with the work crew in Oakville. Oh boy, I don't think my heart can take that either.

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